It is extremely hard to believe a year has passed since you came in to our lives. I go over that day in my head a lot lately....I guess as we have approached this day...your 1st birthday. I so wanted to go in to labor but when it actually began I was in complete denial that you were on your way. Oh I could not wait to meet you and have you join our lives. I knew you were going to make such an impact...and have you ever!
You have a huge personality...one we are immensely enjoying watching you grow into. While you are very independent you love to be held...and we love holding you. So much...sometimes I don't want to let go. I suppose that will never change. You are definitely doing things in your own time and no one elses. I love that about your personality. You are very serious and very silly all mixed up into one little girl.
I can't wait to put you in dance....all kinds of dance and sports if you want to. Maybe you will sing or play guitar like your daddy. Truth be told...I have no earthly idea if you will even like dance, or sports...or if you will have a voice for singing and maybe its piano you fall in love with...or drums....I type that laughing out loud because your daddy has always said, before you, "Cash can play any instrument..but not the drums". Not sure why the aversion to drums but none the less you may be our drummer in the family.
I want for you to not be scared of trying new things and I want you to see things through without being afraid to fail. Does that make sense? Life comes with failure and disappointment..which is ok as it allows us to grow, learn and do things differently than we did before. Failure and disappointment, I would think, will be easier if we aren't afraid of it. There were many times mommy didn't try something becomes I was afraid of not being good at it so that fear prevented me from trying new things..things I could have been great at or liked a lot. I hope you have a healthy fear...like your daddy. He is my inspiration as he is never afraid to take a risk...no matter the outcome.
I have no idea where life will take you and I have so many hopes and dreams for you. It's hard for me to look to far down the road...as I just have a hard time seeing my sweet 'baby' girl growing up to be a woman. Yes, I know it will happen and the day will probably come that I will be standing in that bridal suite with you as we prepare for your daddy to walk you down the aisle but I can barely let those thoughts enter my head as they bring me to tears. Happy tears....but tears none the less. So for now...this is the little girl I see. I love you my sweet Emma and I love seeing life through your sweet eyes.
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