Not knowing exactly where to begin here....I think we will start with "the thought" of little Miss Emma. It was early September 2012, at parent orientation for Cash's kindergarten year and Megan Brown told me she was expecting their 3rd child as we were walking in to the school. I was so thrilled for them but also felt instantly like I was missing something...well that something was baby #2. I had always toyed with the idea of having another but really didn't know if I was just missing that baby stage with Cash or if I really wanted to add to our family. Ben always wanted just one child and we were, for the most part, on the same page. I remember texting Ben telling him that the Browns were expecting and his response, "good for them".:) It wasn't a happy good for them..it was a oh no Terri is going to want a baby "good for them". :) We didn't even talk about it that evening...I knew not to bring it up as I could tell his wheels were turning...and fear was setting in. The next morning Ben asked me if I wanted to have another baby. I said, "yes, I think I do". So after many conversations and much deep thought for both of us we decided to take the plunge and try for baby #2.
I can remember being worried because of my age...which was 36 at the time..and though there are so many women having their first babies at 36 it just seemed like there were more potential obstacles than when I was 30. None the less....we were pregnant very quick and I was beyond thrilled. Ben was at a gig when I found out we were pregnant with Cash and he was at a gig again when I found out we were pregnant with Emma. Ben was in shock I think.....shocked it happened so fast, and shocked we were actually doing this again. The day before Cash's 6th birthday we found out we were having baby #2.
November 2, 2012
